At this point, I am not sure what the title of today's blog is going to be but in honor of Earth Day, I am using an earth tone for my color. ;-) I am starting off with what is on my mind and see where it leads me. I am not creative in any kind of sense. I marvel and admire other people's creativity.
I am a perfectionist in the sense that if I tackle a job, I will do the best that I can and will work on it until I think it is perfect. I have several "hobbies" (if you will). For instance, I can crochet, in the simplest form of crocheting, unlike my Mother (when she was alive) and my oldest sister who still can crochet anyone I know under the table. She can make anything with OUT a pattern and I so admire her for her talent. I like to scrapbook and have several different projects in mind, but they sit undone.
I learned how to work with stain glass a few years ago and all my equipment sits idle. I also like to work with plastic canvas and it too sits, packed away. As a craft project at our family reunions, I introduced Pearler Beads and it became a big hit. It is also, for me, is a way to relax and let the stress roll of my back but they too are packed away.
I guess I started out thinking about these things today because it is Earth Day and I am in bad need of a cleaning out process. Now if you think I am talking about cleaning out and getting rid of all of my stuff, YOU CAN THINK AGAIN !! I am a collector of stuff and MY stuff is MY stuff. I just have to convince my husband of this.
However, I am really talking of something deeper, the inner me. The me that NO ONE ever sees. That is the part of me that I need to start cleaning out. NOT that I am a bad person or have deep inner thoughts of a dark nature but every once in awhile, I think I need a good "talking too" and in the process I clean out the negativity inside me. Normally I start out with a more positive outlook on how to go about this and wonder if today is not the day to start my cleansing process..
Do you ever feel like there is another person, maybe the person you USE to be is inside you, just waiting to get out?
I am not talking literal-just trying to rationalize my thinking process. Trying to work on cleaning out my "inner closet".. Oh I have just found my title, "Cleaning Out My Inner Closet". This is how I work.. or rather how my brain works...
I so admire people that have their lives together, I USE to be one of those people or I thought I was at the time, ha! Since July 2009, I have felt lost, my life changed, maybe for the better, I am not as stressed out as I was but "stresses" change in ones life, when your surroundings change, you lose a job, you lose friends, your finances change, your Independence is taken away, so many different things can happen. It is how you choose to handle these changes that makes the difference.
I have not handled them very well and I am trying to find my way back to reality and I really don't have a clue as to how to go about it. I think that the thinking process must be the first step. Ok let's make a list.... (I am just a person with my own thoughts and thinking process, this list is of course, for me.) Here's to hoping to find a better way to deal with what life has dealt me.
1. Thought process: Your thinking that there must be some kind of change that needs to take place.
2. Make a list: Write it down. For me, as you can see, lists are very important.
3. Start slow - Take ONE step at a time: Jumping in too fast, may get you over your head and cause overwhelming side effects.
4. Keep it Real: Don't make it hard, keep it simple.
5. Take Action: Again, take one step at a time even if it is "small Baby Steps" Ever see the movie, "What About Bob?"
6. Step Back: Take a look every now and then at where you are in your process.
7. Allow Room For Set-backs: If things don't go the way you think that they should, take a break from it and start again when your ready..
OK SO NOW.... I just have to make myself keep this list in full view and in my thoughts at all times AND most important, APPLY it to the problem at hand...
I hope you all have a great weekend!!
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